Sometimes, I really should not go looking at certain things, especially when I know better. Though this time, all thanks to Raze Valadeus pointing out how something he had spoken of on IGS may paint him as 'heretical', my own curiosity got the better of myself. For once, I brought up my datapad, and looked over the place of repeating nonsense. A few topics caught my eye, but all three eventually had one topic in particular mentioned in them: slavery.
I kept reading them, anyway, but something someone said brought up a fear I kept brushing away repeatedly, not wishing it to linger in my mind. New slaves in the Empire are taken from criminals, those held in prison. Slaves taken in such a way are never released, and for good reason. My heart always sinks when I am reminded of that.
I was taken from prison, I am a criminal turned slave ...
Doubt hits me hard at times, such as it does right now. Freedom was promised to me months ago when he felt he could release me without issue. Though I wonder, can he? I do weep over this, that I my never have anything more but the slave status in the Empire, or even in the Mandate or Kingdom for that matter. The one place in the entire cluster of empires where I would less likely stick out like a sore thumb ... and I am reduced to less then that of a commoner. To just ... some one's property.
Fortunate as it may, though he has never treated me as anything but a person, the status still saddens me. How others will treat me, what it prevents me of achieving later on ... it is all dictated by those damnable title. If I can never be free, I can never face them and take back what should be my inheritance. I need to, in remembrance of my lost kin.
He promised me last night he find a way, when I told him of my woe within the solarium. I still have my doubts, however, that it may not be possible. I would have wept had the man not pulled me into a much needed hug. Though once we were at home, and sleep had over come him, nothing prevented the tears from coming.
They did...
Dear Lord, why am I this pathetic...
